Christmas Disfunction

Christmas time is one of my favorite times of the year. Everyone is in such a good mood most of the time and so much is going on that I love to find out about. I enjoy hearing my friends stories of their holiday adventures and sharing my own to complement theirs. This year was no different. The celebrations started on Christmas Eve for me when I went over to Mike L's house for his family's party. I greatly enjoyed myself. I got to see his family again and meet some of his family friends. It was a good time to just sit and chill with Mike and Jarrett and catch up pretty much. I did feel kind of bad because I had ate lunch right before I went over there with my sister at Kabutos which was awesome. Fillet and scallops is what I'm favoring now when ever I dine there. Since I had eaten lunch I didn't eat too much at the party, which made me feel bad because there was so much food. All of which I did tried was delicious. My favorite was the meatballs that they had made. After that ended I went home and had some quality bonding time with my father. Our Christmas Eve dinner, althought unconventional, consisted of stir-fry stuff that was awesome! I went to sleep early because I was ready for it to be Christmas morning, which is a two for one for me: it's Christmas AND morning time!
On Christmas I woke up at around 5:30 due to the fact that I went to sleep so early, so I had to just lay in my bed until around 7:30, which is when I said I'd wake my dad up. The reason I stayed in bed is because every year we always go in on Christmas morning as a family; and even though this year was just me and my father I wasn't going to break tradition for anything. It is the little things that do make my days wonderful afterall. When the time finally came around for me to wake up my dad we had to wait for my sister to get over to the house before we could open presents. So, my dad and I watched CNN news on Christmas morning at 7:30 . . . how cool are we? Kristina finally arrived at the house around 9:00 because she didn't even wake up until 8:30-ish which made me upset, I'll admit, because she said she'd be over first thing in the morning. I was just upset that I forgot my definition of first thing in the morning and other people's definition of the word is different. Now that she was there we could open presents. I got some cool stuff! I got a really cool jacket, a band T-shirt I wanted, a video game, some money, a Hot Topic gift card, and some new cards for poker nights. After opening our gifts my family just relaxed and watched some Ice Age: The Meltdown on TV.
Christmas in my life is a two-part affair. I spend the morning with one parent, and the afternoon and evening with another. Obviously, since I woke up at my father's, I had to go to my mother's during the day. The whole reason it was planned like this was so I could eat Christmas dinner at my mom's house. She called me and asked if I wanted to do it this way so she could cook. Naturally I said of course, because who doesn't love good food? Well I get out there around 12:30 and sure enough my mom is already intoxicated beyond reasoning. This did piss me off immensely. She was so drunk that she was incapable of cooking anything. So, like a lot of nights when I go out there, I don't get any dinner. My is passed out most of the time starting around 3:00 in the afternoon on any given day I go out there, only waking up to have a cigarette. I just can not understand why she gets upset when I don't come out there. She always thinks I'm not spending time with her, but when ever I do go out there she just gets insanely drunk to the point where I just say, "Fuck this," and go into my room because I would rather be alone than be with her in that state. Don't get me wrong, I love my mother very much, but I do not love her in that state of mind. I feel anger, pity, depression, and embarrassment all at the same time. Later that night I went over to my neighbor and good friend's house. That family is amazing. Quintin, Carly, Carmen, and Russel really are good people. Russel actually was nice enough to give me some food to eat. Carly and I were just hanging out and her friend Kristina (not my sister) came over and we just relaxed and watched some TV until I realized how late it was and had to reluctantly go back home.
In the morning my mother was fine and everything was right in the world. She was upset when I left this afternoon because I only stayed for one night, but I can't stand being out in Madison for much longer than that anymore. It's not that I don't like Madison, it's just the family disfunction that keeps me at bay. Everytime I go out there, however, I do allow myself to believe that things have changed which only leads to disappointment everytime. Maybe one day things will change and I will be able to have an in-depth conversation with my mother after 3:00p.m.
Merry day-late Christmas.